Maria Schneider: Raising the Bar
All About Jazz: What can you offer from a woman's perspective?
Maria Schneider: First of all, when I started being a part of this music, in school, I really was oblivious to the fact that I was the only girl, and I think part of it was because when I was a kid my father used to bring me out duck hunting with his friends; so I was always with men, so I had a lot of "comfortability" with men, always. And the women I was around: my piano teacher, a great stride pianist, was a woman; there was a really wonderful painter in townshe was a woman; the drama coachshe was a woman.
In most artistic disciplines it's sort of a man's world; in my tiny town of Windom, Minnesota, this little agricultural town, the artists were women. So I think a lot of it has to do with what your first mindset is. When I went to school and I was the only girl, I didn't really think about it. And the other thing is I didn't grow up in a place that had a strong jazz tradition. In terms of genre, I still feel very free, because I don't feel like I owe some kind of debt to the tradition of jazz. I have this kind of open feeling that whatever my music is, is somehow valid.
That isn't to say that I haven't had a few little voices go off in my head over the years, like when I was studying with [Bob] Brookmeyer and I'd gone through college and I wrote this piece for the Mel Lewis band. Mel was nice enough to let me write something for them, but it didn't have the muscle of the Mel Lewis band, really. And I remember saying to Brookmeyer when I was studying with him: "I wanna be able to write like a man," and he said, "OK, I'm gonna show you some things. But," he said, "what's beautiful is that you're not a man. I'm so tired of men!" So here and there I questioned it and I also here and there thought, "Can I do this? This is for jazz musicians. Am I able to do this?" But then, pretty quickly, it was natural for me to just drop that and say, "Whatever is in me, through my past and through what I listen to, that's what I express."
AAJ: Do you remember the first time you heard your own music?
MS: Oh yeah! The first thing I heard was just a little theory exercise, a string quartet and that's when my theory teacher said, "You should really be a composition major." And I was thrilled, because the feeling was amazing. Now I panic every time I hear something new. I still get nervous.
AAJ: Did you wonder, "Wow, I did that!" or, "How did I do that?"
MS: Well, sometimes I get the feeling of, Why did I do that? [laughs] Usually the things that I think are going to sound great, it's like: "Why does that not sound good?" and the things that I think are just going to be awful, it's like: "Wow, that sounds really good! Why? I didn't expect that!"
So sometimes it's the opposite of what you expect and then I think, "God, do I really know anything at all?." A lot of it is like stabbing in the dark. I think the most profound influence on me was realizing the power, through Gil [Evans] and Miles [Davis'] collaborations, of the connection of written music with improvisationhow connected and beautiful and expressive that can be. And that's what I'm most trying to develop.
That's the hardest thing to me in writing this music, because anybody can learn to write a chart and have somebody blow on it and you think, "Oh goody, now I'm going to write out the changes and they're just going blow." But to compose something, a skeleton under something that is moving harmonically in a through-composed way and trying to make the soloist an integral part of the piece and a part of the development of the piecethat's very, very difficult. And you need players who are very sensitive and think compositionally and not in terms of ego and wanting to show everything that they learned, but really playing for the music.
And so that for me is the real beauty, and that's why I had so much fun in Brazil, because all these players bring their thing to my music. I'd put it there, and they didn't just give me a good performance of my music, I also gave them a chance to be themselves on my music. And so together, at the end of the evening, we all can thank each other for different things, but we created something that was our own. And I go to Italy, and I worked with these great musicians in Italy: the same thing; that's a special relationship. With each of these groups I have special relationships because of the intimacy that we share when we make music. It's really very wonderful. And then of course with my own band, that's like my marriage partner.